AFTERMATH

the two-day heatwave is gone
today stiff breezes
overcast skies
occasional drizzle
fleeting shadows
passing time
time to fix a lunch i haven't earned
and can't be bothered with
after another mourning of underachievement
spent messing about
doing and putting off dull chores
out of sorts
out of thoughts
blurry head
stiff shoulders
sicky stomach
sticky mouse
tired
distracted
confused
unenthused
stressed n distressed
morose thoughts playing/preying on my mind
cash-flow problems
arguments with loved ones
30th birthday blues
so much unresolved
more questions than answers
hardly any answers at all in fact
where do i go from here?
is it down to the lake i fear?
should i settle for this
or should i try that?
am i just wasting my time?
the stall at the festival
was at the disappointing end of the hope spectrum
a roundly humdrum debut i would say
on the plus side:
got out there for the first time
broke the ice
met the pub lick
overcame the stage fright
did some useful networking
had a few folks i know drop by
got some positive feedback about the banner n stall
had a few tricky questions that put me on my mettle
got a few useful leads
generally elicited a little bit of vague interest...
on the minus side:
made minimal impact on most people
came away without a single customer
departed with the overall sense
that people are happy to receive free advice
but pretty reluctant to pay for it
(big surprise!)...
is that kind of venue a good way of getting business?
probably not
would a trade fair be better?
maybe
what's the next step?
some shaky conclusions:
set up a professional-looking website
keep genning up on all matters sustainable
get some good suppliers on board...
but this afternoon
i will visit h's school for a parent-governor meet
then fly into town
to hook up with carol
who i haven't seen since...when?
our wedding in 1999!?