RE-SEARCH

night-time is so lonely
when you hear a sound
but it's only an empty heart
beating out through the night
a sad sad drum
and i'm lying here listening
and the raindrops are all glistening
in my dreams
and it seems
that the sun never comes...
the end of a long day of searching
and researching
finding the trail
then losing the scent
leads
wild goose chases
and red herrings
chasing my tail
web searches
emails
phone calls
distant conversations with close intimates
intimate conversations with complete strangers
illumination
confusion
frustration
obfuscation
prolonging the agony?
postponing the inevitable?
following my bliss?
where does it all lead?
what does it all add up to?
where does that fit into the equation?
so many considerations
so many unanswered questions
so many questions without answers
like navigating through fog
all you can do is set yourself some goals
start with the big pitcher
then work your way down to the details
refine em
renew em
revise em
screw em up n chuck em in the bin
if necessary
most importantly
get the ideas down on paper
talk about em
test em out
find the weaknesses
the fallacies
the straw men
and weed the buggers out
argh!
i reread this post
and it's nothing but a horrible mess of mixed-up metaphors
oh my seeds
fireseed doth beseech you
be gentle with him tonight
for his brain is fried
tomorrow it will be better
hasta banana
f
xxxx